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THANK GOD FOR JUNE: It is said that a grateful heart is a magnet for miracles. This year has been amazing. I’m thankful for big stuff, small stuff, standard stuff, personal stuff. I don’t know if I’ll post them all. I’m just going to go with it. I hope you read something that feels good.

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I am thankful for my Father. I may be more aware of this on a daily basis than the average person. Missing someone does that to you, I guess.

I’m thankful for my Father though. The things he said to me. The way he’d wake me up in the morning. I’m grateful for the way he loved my Mother. For the way he’d sing old songs in our ears during pictures.

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I’m grateful I met such a man, knew such a soul. I’m thankful that I carry him in my heart. I’m thankful for the letters he wrote. Because “I always knew you’d be pretty, but you truly are a sight to see.” I loved what we made fun of, he considered to be his best feature; “Everyone in town used to ask my Mother if I could be the baby Jesus in the Christmas show, you know?”

Because hearing the door click at 5.30pm meant the coolest guy in the world was home. RUN! Because,”My little girl, I am lost for you. I adore you. Your heart is 50% mine. Don’t ever forget it.” Because Friday afternoon meant tennis classes with Dad.

Because, “Tone. Tonellita.” Because,”I love you, Baby.” Because, “Doesn’t XOXO mean goodbye?” No, Dad. It doesn’t.

IMG_6291Because crisp khakis will always be my favorite. Because nobody makes a grilled cheese at midnight like he did. Because, “Don’t tell your Mom.” For teaching me to play, swing, catch, & run. Because you were my favorite. Because you were our favorite. For the family you gave us. For the love you never held back. For the stories you’d tell. For staying up late waiting for us. For calling. For making it hard to keep a straight face. For bringing us home. Because I miss you. Because I always will.

Because I am so very thankful for you that feeling angry is inconceivable. Forever 50%.

About Antonella Saravia

Antonella is a New York based writer from Nicaragua.

One Comment

  1. Christine

    Beautiful! Just beautiful! ❤️

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